In this poignant and lyrical tale of the author's past, DJB talks about what it is to love and lose.There is a madness to the world the author now inhabits, and no more fantasies can changethe reality he has already lived. In the end, from the author, there is the loneliness of old agewhere his past comes to haunt him, but no matter, we will all eventually be confronted in the night, by the knowledge of the damages that we have left behind.